Balance

I really don't like it when things are already so tight but hopefully God will find that balance for me. I guess the position I'm in at the moment is a time of testing and shaping of my inner character especially in the area of faith.

No1 will be there to support nor be able to offer any kind of understanding anyway. Life must ultimately be God centered for only he cares.

Hopefully, I'll last this year and beyond.

1st week

1 down, 9 to go. Its only going to get even crazier. Thankfully, there is the holidays to look forward to in 2 wks time. At least can have some time to plan and gather forces together with my classmates and share materials.

I'm thankful to the Lord for a smooth transition into really work life. My CTs have been friendly and helpful, ppl ard have been nice and I've been hungry all the time. Brain really working like mad.

Learning Journey

Went out of school with the class today, where? PP neighborhood, oh wow, so exciting ! Ya right ! The parent volunteers were supportive, each class had about 7 of them so the pupils were in grps of 4. Tagged along to help or so called make myself useful esp to my CT.

It was fun and enjoyable, too bad i already know the area very well. Had to be very strict at times to the boys, scolded them a few times. In the end, the trip was good and the parents were appreciative of it, even saying I handled them well.

If only every parent were tt understanding. Thurs is ard the corner, so fast, almost my 1st wk is done. Gladded tt i'm setting in nicely, it helps when the teachers r friendly and helpful to each other. Yesterday was in the lounge with about 8 of them and hearing them gossip about the boys, haha. I wont say what the boys did or say, censored materials u know!

A new chapter begins

Today marks the start of a 10 wk journey that will define my early career. One comforting thing would be the physical environment, now i'm really going to church 6 days a week or even more if i count in SS. Its a pleasant environment to be in, colleagues are friendly and helpful, though it will take a while to warm up to them. Will be seeing the children tmr, looking fw to that, just need to remind myself not to smile and put on a fierce look. Very hard... i think i will just put on the dont come near me look which sometimes some of u see on sat. :p

I'm thankful to God for arranging things out and we'll see how things go as the weeks go by. Only 2 weeks and 4 days left to the holidays!

Thanks to those who have been praying for me and encouraging me and esp those who really gave me a piece of their mind when i sounded so pessimistic on matters, thanks for that tough love!

Ps: Received an sms to ponder over, there is peace on this, i wonder does tt mean the decision has been made?

God will

Lead, there is no need to worry

Hold me accountable, for no1 is better out there to do so

Embrace me when no1 else seems near

Encourage me cos he knows me inside out

Love me always for He is the redeemer, saviour and my friend!

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Be there for you cos if He is there for me, He will definitely be there for you too!

Persevere on to whoever reads this post

Believe

Here i am again, thinking abt how impossible it is for me. Thx for the listening ear, i will stay strong.

Only You

"God has not promised skies always blue,

flower-strewn pathway all our lives through;

God has not promised sun without rain, joy

without sorrow, peace without pain.

But God has promised strength for the day,

rest for the labour, light for the way,

grace for trials, help from above,

unfailing sympathy, undying love"

- Kristone

A very interesting scene esp when u give this msg out to encourage someone and u get the same exact msg back from the same person. Through it all, we both didn't know till we checked later on and compared and realised what we had received.

Only You can arrange for such an outcome. God is very in-ter-est-ing!

Limits

Sometimes, u keep wondering why though its been a painful process, that one would still attempt to try. Today, I step close to yet that border again and it drives me up the wall. I wonder how much more can i take before i tell myself that i'm the dumbest person alive to keep doing it while others don't even bother a single bit.