Obedient

It get even tougher when you know you really don't like it but out of obedient, you are persevering on cos he called you to mold your inner self to be a reflection of him.

When o when o when o is this going to end... hehe, laughing at dumb o me.

Counting Down thoughts

Recently, my friends has started to count down the number of days left for us before we see one another again. Not too long more, and yet there is still a distance away.

Everyday has been challenging. Yet no matter what, starting the day with God helps me to stay focus on knowing what is the end goal for life and not work.

Today my 11 years old spoke like adults when they ask me if i enjoy teaching. They then went on to ask if i regret it after teaching them.

Somehow deep down, it feels as though God is saying, "I've shown you the good and bad sides of this profession, are you going to fight on?"

I think the answer will eventually surface in a few years time. For now, I still haven't gotten into this mindset that I'm working. Its seems as though I'm doing full time ministry with children, which is good for them though ya, I need to take care of my health cos i know i am falling into the phrase of being a workaholic.

At present, its a good discipline to build up on and wanting to speak into the boys life. If only there is more time to be more influential in their lives, to build them up not base on their grades but who they can truly be as a person.

Its good to give without asking or expecting for a return, the heart is more willing in this way. Something which i know i have lost for a certain time now, the sense of serving the Lord with joy.

May God grant me a heart fixed on him in all that i do.

Thanks Giving

Time flies, already back to work for 2 days already. Thank You Lord for a smooth transition back to work. Getting the hang of things better now, though the challenges are still there, it's still been a wonderful journey so far. 6 wks and 3 more days left or to be exact 30 more working days and the chapter will close for another to begin. Looking forward to that.

On another note, it's been challenging to take a strong stand on some matters. Through it all, I'm thankful that God is shaping me through it.

God works in amazing ways and the recent meet ups with someone and encouragements from another has given me more directions and assurances. Though it is still going to be a tough walk ahead, with me not knowing if i can last, I want to say that God will certainly stand in the gap over my weaknesses.

1 week

It's been a good week of resting. Learning much about God and life, catching up with friends and being productive at work.

I find myself going through ups and downs this week.

Downs can really be downs, wonder how am i going to last through it in the long term. For a start, it must try not to hate people and things.

Ups are wonderful, to learn so much about God and to be able to hear also from different people gives learning a new dimension. Its being a long while since i really learn things in 1 on 1 or small grp setting.

There is lots of uncertainty ahead still, but ... I know tt courage arises from God and no other.

Learning

You learn lots about yourself as time goes by especially in the situations that God throws you into. Character is built along the way but there is still so much to learn. It's a bittersweet experience I must say. Well, if the ultimate aim is to be more Christlike and to be more refined by him, then just have to stomach it and accept that at least it's in an environment whereby God will surround you with his love and push you to lean on him and no other.

Effective Communication

There's more to effective communication than putting together and then practicing the right message. Picking the right time and place to convey it is also crucial.

- Gary and Norma Smalley

Holidays

I'm thankful for the meet up. A full day of being with people who are on the same path, who truly can understand and can relate best about your own situations. It's good to be in that company knowing that we do support and help one another if there is a need.

Sometimes, it's good to be with this group of friends than others though you might see them more often than not. Maybe familiarity causes people to take you for granted.

Time to get back to work. God promises never fail you even when men has failed you countless times. Fix your eyes on the one and only person in life worth living for.

James 5:7-11

Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near. Don't grumble against each other, brothers, or you will be judged. The Judge is standing at the door!

Brothers, as an example of patience in the face of suffering, take the prophets who spoke in the name of the Lord. As you know, we consider blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job's perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.